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I’ve known you for quite sometime
Good friends since we were young
We were all like a big family
Where everyone knew you and me

So many stories have being told
From the young ones to the very old
All the fond memories and tragic moments
From tenants getting shot to the abandoned homes

Many things have happened in our hood
From ghetto parties to kids wearing blue
Pre-aged pregnancies from across the way
To people getting robbed every single day

All those times spent in 89th St.
Are just left over treats
Like “Teenage Mutant Ninja” piñatas
And Recalentados en la mañanas

Then the L.A. riots happened
An early Christmas, which meant the end
Worried parents came into play
And the final decision was then made

It wasn’t long before we had to part
A new father and a new home set us apart
It was mixed emotions of my life
Where I left my childhood with the queens’ hive

I grew and meet new friends
In the city of dirty sand grains
We lost contact for many years
Until we meet at a party my dear

Skeptic in a conversation of being judged
Kept my distance until we budged
Afraid of times being changed
Until one of us broke the ice in range

We finally had full conversations
Of how our lives have being aging
And how our way of living was very convention
Many obstacles came into play, she mentions

Seemed like the great times rapidly went by
And it wasn’t long before we said goodbye
We exchanged all of our information
Not knowing it was never to be mentioned

What really happened after that, who knows?
But we never spoke again, as if we were foes
Never understood why we never talked
Three years passed and you gave me a shock

Not remembering her that well
We carried on, oh so much to tell
Spent hours on the phone
What we talked about who knows?

We have so much in common
Set aside from a perfect omen
We both have gone through rough times
But as long as we’re there for each other things will be fine

I made an oath to protect her
In any location of this world
She has being missing all along
Now we both don’t sit all alone

She is my ying and I’m her yang
We go together like peanut butter and jam
And now I’m a kid with a new toy
Happier days filled with joy

From now on things will get better
Since our heads lie under great weather
As we both belong to the “Killer Bee Clan”
Destined together as if it was planned

Meet her in a bar
As I turned around for glimpse
I knew right from the start
That I wasn't going to go far

She stood there so lonely
I went over there nervously
And as I approached her
She rapidly said, "Hold me"

As I introduced myself
I knew I would bite my lip
I told her my name and
She gave me a smile

Put my arms around her smooth body
As she request me to do so
And just from right there
I knew she was going to be naughty

Her lips went over mine
Made me feel so differently
She gave me back feelings
I haven't felt in a long time

I put my arms around her again
We locked lips once more
She’s taking advantage of me
But what is there to gain?

She's calling both of her friends
And yes they're coming over
One is taller while other is shorter
I just hope this night never ends

I danced with out a single care
With out a worry so foolishly
I looked her in the eyes
And fell in love with her flair

I want her to go home with me
But she has to stay here
Leaving slow and dreaming
While she yells "please don't leave me"

I decided to bring her home
Lay her right next to me
I made her comfortable
Together again all alone

Every where I go she'll be there
She makes me feel wanted
Getting rid of all the stress
She’s my perfect pair...

I’ve tried everything, but I can’t stop loving her
I’ve tried everything to try and avoid her
It seems she’s already moving on
And I’m still stuck here alone

What am I supposed to do?
Can’t stop feeling down and blue
The love she had for me is no longer there
She can’t feel my sorrow, don’t think she even cares

Maybe someday I’ll be fine with this
And maybe someday I’ll deal with all this
A friendship that started out strong
A burning love that went so wrong

How can I get her out of my mind?
It’s not easy but I need my time
She made up her mind and knows what she wants
I’m still trying to get over her loving me once

I can’t be friends, not right now
I need time to know what’s wrong
Can’t believe this one broke my heart
She bull’s-eyed me with a poisonous dart

I don’t think I can longer be her friend
It’s so sad that this could be the end
Just even seeing her with another person
Will break me down like a cell prison

I can’t even stand there and stare her in the eyes
Don’t want to see if they’re truthful or full of lies
Her eyes are filled with emptiness
While my heart is filled with loneliness

It’s sad to see things end like this
Would someone help me, wont you please?
Everything was thrown away
All we had in a single day

I wonder why people turn dishonest
Could it be that they are heartless
Things aren’t going to be the same
Who should we say is to blame?

Could it be that I’m too kind-hearted and nice
Maybe I should be a jerk like the rest of the guys
It’s not in my nature to hate someone
It’s just not me, shouldn’t be anyones

I’ve tried everything to move on
I’ve tried everything to be strong
I need to help myself be new
Since there is nothing else to do…

…or is there???

It’s hard to believe
That you are gone
The times at work
Without you are no fun

Boy how I miss you,
A good friend you were
You left us behind
In a way very unfair

Wish you would had warned me
That you were leaving
Just like that
And now were grieving

Juanito we told you,
But you didn’t know
When to stop
And take control

It’s just hard to believe,
That one day were joking
And then the next day
You’re laying in a coffin

At a very young age
Stubborn you were
I’ve told you many times
But drunk you still drove

Driving under the influence
Why wouldn’t you listen?
Wish I would had being with you
Before you went missing

And now I will cherish
The times we spent
When we hanged out together
Foolishly with no sense

I just hope you found peace
That where ever you’re resting
You’ll look down on us
And hear our prayers and blessings

Rest In Peace Juan Montenegro aka Gansito

Everything you ever wrote to me
I read it with pleasure
I thought of you, every time I was doing work
Or being lectured

Everything I ever said or told you
I meant it!
Every memory of you that I have
I kept it!

Every little time we spent
I haven’t forgotten
The love I had for you
Was very abundant

Every time I saw you
My day filled with joy
But then there were times
I wasn’t so sure

Every time I tried to talk with you
I felt very apart
I had this weird feeling
That things weren’t going right

Everyday that passed by
Without a confrontation
Didn’t make me mad
It just made me disappointed

Every day that we sat on the bench
I knew
Little signs in your face
Told me it was true

Every single day that I sat here
I knew
I didn’t say anything cause
I wanted it come from you

Every time I waited there
I wish you would of told me
It would of made things much
Easier for you and me

Every time I walked with you and
Held your hand,
I thought of you
As more than just a friend

Every time that I spent with you
I don’t regret it
My love for you is still strong
And don’t you forget it

Every time we were together
And you walked away
I knew things between us
Were not the same

Every time I spent without you
Made me concern and worried
And if I ever did something wrong,
Well I’m really sorry…

There are things I want to tell you
Things I want to say
With the simplicity of a prayer
You should walk this way.

Speak I can hear you!
I promise I will listen
But speak a little louder
Your voice has being missing.

Trying my hardest
I assure you I have.
Oh please forgive me
For I haven’t thrive.

I assumed that you would help me
When I was feeling down
Thought you would be there for me
When I was on the ground.

I have time, but not patience
Why can’t I have both?
Too many things are thrown at me
Why can’t I have control?

There are things I want to accomplish
Things I want to do
Please be by my side
For whatever route I choose

I have broken into many little pieces
Held up by a piece of tape
Scars from the past and present
How will my fate end?

It’s funny how you look at me
I can’t tell if you’re serious
Or simply mocking me
What would you say will become of me?

This is the reason I need you
To stand over my shoulders
For when I cry I won’t be sad
And feel any lower.

So please hold my hand
I ask of this of you.
Please try to understand
That I have missed you!

A lonely childhood we had lived
I had all the toys I ever need
It’s not what I wanted, it was you
That I needed to tie my shoes

No one can ever understand
What pain I have felt
Having holidays and ceremonies
All by ourselves

I hope you haven’t forgotten us
Because I can’t feel you
There’s still a chance we might get united
But that’s up to you!

I need your help can’t you see
Things aren’t going so well
All the planned things I had
Have failed to well…

A beautiful day
In search of a tale
The sunny blue sky,
Seem things were going to well.

A bright white cloud
That stood by it self
Right there in the middle
With nothing to tell.

When least he expected,
Things were feeling so real
Stood their infected
With nothing to heal.

Socializing felt wrong
For the little bright cloud
As the others had mocked him
Bringing his hopes down.

He went on his way
As the others had gathered
They were from the bay,
To him it didn’t matter.

The Big Angry Grey’s
That who they were
With hatred indeed
And lighting of course!

He had no choice
But to go down to Earth
Becoming a human
He was given rebirth.

The same as on top
And outcast he stood
His life was repeated
Feeling down and blue.

A misunderstanding
Gave him a wrong view
Big Greys had came down
Who were after his loom.

He started to walk and
They proceeded to follow
He found a new passage
Were they could not follow.

He went with a stranger
To a place he called “Home”
He thought he was safe
But not for too long.

They sent out a notice
He tried to explain
His story was given
But wouldn’t restrain.

He left in a hurry
And the stranger kept follow
His vision went blurry
As his heart went hollow.

The bright little cloud was stranded
The Big Greys were fond of him
For you see he was now surrounded,
As he stood to cry mercifully in panic.

The bright little cloud
Was betrayed and rejected
By the big mean Greys
Who were all very demented.

To say goodbye
to his people that day
For being so fluffy and white
And not a meanie ‘o’ Grey.

A very sad day
For the little bright cloud
To gather his things
And walk on out.

We are young and we are old
this world brings us more than our hands can hold
and in our near future we will all unfold

Darkness closes in
and hopes grow within
time through time I will not win

This day always comes by
every single year, I watch as it flies
I wave goodbye and run to hide

I'll run forward into time and try to
stop it, before time kills me
it not easy living a life without a degree

Acknowledging the truth about
this day, meaning nothing to me
just another day that I live in

The past has brought nothing
into my future, my life has no meaning
no point in believing about the truth

I see this day as just
another day that I get older
getting closer to my death

wondering the real reason
about life and if their is a
meaning of life beside god

What this world will bring
we don’t know, its up to us
to make a change

The day I was born
this day always comes, the year
comes near and my life is not yet clear

Birthdays aren't always happy
existing lives are not always worth it
Happy day of my birth I look forward it

Our kids are going to prison
they’re killing for no reason
their parents are to blame

When people are killing people
their feelings getting deeper
revenge is not the same

A knife is my protection
a life with no direction
this world is just a game

A gun is not the answer
I see the world with cancer
The days are very gray

This place is overrated
my freedom is what they traded
my heart is on a tray

This world is almost ending
my soul is what I'm sending
and you'll just have to pray

Your using drugs like others
end up killing all your idols
and you'll end up with remorse

Your kids are always ditchers
the rich are getting richer
and you'll end up just as poor

You teach them all this violence
they just ask for simple guidance
our schools are not for war

I'm bleeding in all directions
Our life is all in pain
Stop my blood from circulation
There’s poison in my veins

I don’t know where, oh where
You are going with this
I’ve always loved you, theirs no doubt
But our love I don’t know what is about

I wanted to pretend that
It didn’t bother me
But pretending is hard
Not knowing if you still loved me

I made myself think
That everything was okay
Who would of thought?
It would affect me this way

Not hearing from you
Made me see a different view
Just wondering if you were fine
Not knowing I was crossing your line

So what is it that you feel?
Was your love for me not real?
I wish I could see things your way
I hope this doesn’t affect you in any way

Was there a fire to ignite?
Or were we blinded by night
In a hot day with a warm breeze
This day I wont forget, my heart you teased

Missing the days we both shared
A future I thought I had prepared
Not knowing that you were forbidden
By all this signs well hidden

Your hard love was like a fire
Something dangerous but always desire
Maybe you want to be left alone
It’s like a love story unknown

On a dark scary road
Who would've known?
That he would drive late at night
And kill another guy

Driving, drunk really fast
In a steel vulture with glass
An alliance with the dead
His tomb is now his bed

On a long dark road
Who would've known?
That he would pick up his gun
And start killing for fun

Dropping people that passed by
Of no reasons of why
A mess up though in his head
He will soon live with the dead

On a dark scary road
Who would've known?
He would pick up his knife
And start killing his wife

With a shiny, sharp blade
And tough feels unafraid
A single bet with the dead
While grim cuts off his head

On a long decedent road
Who would've known?
He would pick up his needle
And leave his wife as a widow

His addiction is to blame
Thinking it was just a simple game
Without a will to be read
He now lives with the dead

Mira con tus ojos
pero no miras el dolor
el dolor de un amor
pintando como un color

Mira con los ojos y
no seas vaboso
mira que llego
el dia de nosotros

Que no te asuste mi presencia
no venimos para mal
pero la sangre si piensa
Y me va a mandar

Por una desgracia
la gente se muere
por una razon
directo al corazon

El dia del muerto a llegado
el final de tu estoria, que as pensado
en el otro lado esta lo malo
se mira el bien y lo que as dado

It's hard enough to say goodbye
But my love for you will yet not die
It’s even harder to say it's over
Especially when there are signs of you all over

I loved and miss kissing those lips of yours
Even when you where sick with boogers in your nose
I miss the days when we where together
That you made me felt as light as a feather

All those fun times we spent going to the movies
Even though we only saw half of a movie
You know when you left me it hurt very much
The heart that you broke and once did touched

You know Trish I’ve had a favor to ask
But never had the guts because it was a hard task
I always had plans for us to last a long way
I guess I plan too ahead, in life everyday

I’ve waited for you here all alone
With out knowing life would ask for a loan
But I made a promise to my one and only
That I’ll wait for you even when I am lonely

You gave me an excuse but still didn't understand
How I was falling down trying to hold you hand
I don’t know baby if you ever knew this
But I always loved you like a gentleman and his miss

You knew girl I didn't know what to expect
The only thing I tried to do was show you respect
I just hope this isn't the end of our story,
If I wasn't there for you I’m really sorry

but sometimes I wish that you would come back
so i can love you again like i did way back
it's hard enough, trish to say goodbye
but my love for you will yet not die